bad girls club atl reunion part tres

i loved this ep, it ended pretty well-ish. i really enjoyed shanrock. i get why people think shannon is fake but honestly, i think she just has issus and because of that had a hard time standing up for herself. she probably saw that and then was like fuck that! and went hard the other direction. or went hard on her bullies. which... those bitches were bullies. completely. but at the end they could've just ignored her cuz she wasn't messing with anyone there. i'm really glad that shannon stuck up for herself and don't really care that she bum-rushed valentina. bitch deserved it. that's what you get when you do that to others. i really wish someone would've kicked alicia's ass. of all the bitches on there, she deserved an ass whooping the most.

now nicky... i have nothing but the utmost respect for her. she's smart, getting her education, she's fair and she will fucking KICK YOUR ASS! she spoke up against how they were doing jenae without smirking and sitting off in the corner (paula.....). she spoke up against her friend shannon for how she went at valentina. and she spoke up against jenniffer. then beat her ass. rightfully so. i love this girl. and i loved that she said what she had to say and peaced out.

lastly, i'm soo sooo soooooo glad that alicia was called out as fake. it's funny because just two seconds before that i was thinking "what a fake ass bitch" because of her "apology" to jenae.

                                   

 just look at the sincerity in her eyes as she says how sorry she is before she says how she didn't really care. but that's how she does. she follows valentina and if valentina says she's cool with someone, alicia will say she's cool with that person when she isn't. she'll just talk shit behind their back, and try to get others to go against that person. there's a whole lot of eye rolling, shrugging and not caring. she talks a whole lot of shit, starts a whole lot of shit and does a whole lot of jumping bitches. i hate her more than anyone in that show.

i really wish everyone saw that and jumped that bitch. also! really loved that while everyone was trying to get on shannon for "jumping" valentina, dumbass ho jenniffer goes and jumps her. dumb bitches don't know how to be anything but dumb bitches. that's why the only job she can get is stripper. oh well.

all in all it was a really fantastic reunion and season.

the end of the offive

so last night was the series finale of the office. it was a pretty solid episode, especially for the finale. i debated how i should go about this post because the office has always been a little more than a show to me. i thought about discussing my favorite parts or things i didn't like. but there was this moment in the finale where pam says how good she'd feel if she knew that her story made a difference in someone else's life. that really stuck with me because her story DID make a difference in my life. so i think i just want to reflect on that for a bit.

when i first watched the office, i didn't like it. i started out with the british version and could barely understand them. so i skipped it and watched the first episode of the first season since people were talking so much about it. i was bored by it. i still can't get into that episode even though there's great moments in it. feeling burnt by the uk version, i wasn't sure if i should watch more or not. i think i decided not to, but a few months later, tried again. this time it was success! the show was in the middle of season two i think. i was delighted to watch this very smart, very subtly hilarious show. at first i didn't like it because i felt michael was just too damn dumb. then i got that that was the joke! i watched every episode that was available. i was a fan. not too long later, i started talking to this incredibly good looking, extremely hilarious, greatly witty, just absolutely amazing guy. of course, i didn't know at the time he was all this.... well not to that extent anyway. we talked day and night despite the fact that i had a boyfriend. this guy became my confidante. my best friend. it was only right that i turned him on to this gem called the office.

he too wasn't a fan at first. especially since (despite me telling him NOT to) he started with the uk version as well. eventually, just like i did, he got into it either. my boyfriend wasn't really into the show, so my best friend was the person i watched this show with and talked to about it. every friday (when it came online) we'd watch the office together and then analyze and debate it. we'd talk about what we liked, thought was hilarious, didn't like and what we predicted for the next few shows and overall storyline. little did i know that our relationship was a mirror of jim and pam's. just a tad bit more drama but basically the same. he fell in love with me, i fell in love with him but didn't know it until much much later because of the relationship i was in.

i remember this moment where pam was planning her wedding to roy. and she's complaining to jim about her stresses that she can't share with roy. and he says something to her along the lines of her "bothering roy with her thoughts and feelings" and without thinking, she agrees that she doesn't want to do that. that was one of the saddest moments to me because i knew right away why that was fucked up, but i was like "yeah, i don't like bothering my bf with my thoughts and feelings. that's what de is for". it was one of many times where pam's actions made me realize what i SHOULD do. but didn't for far too long.


eventually, because of de's love for me and me being with my boyfriend, he stopped talking to me for awhile. just like when jim moved to new york and didn't talk to pam for awhile. i missed him so hard. my life felt empty, hell, i felt empty! i always felt like something was missing and it made me confused and angry and sad. after some time though, we kinda snuck back to each other. i realized i loved him, i was no longer attached and i wanted to be with him but it wasn't possible at the moment. but i was just happy to have him back in my life, even if it was as a friend.

yadda yadda yadda (seinfeld joke! relevant!) we got married, had two children and so far, lived happily ever after. devaughn has always been my jim, in every way. we used to joke about it, but it was always true. this show, in a lot of ways, helped me realize that de was something real for me and that he was the one i should be with. there's been rough moments in our relationship, where i'd turn to the office and see how happy jim and pam were or that they made it through their rough spot and it would make me feel better and let me know that de and i would make it through.

the office brought me and my husband together and made us become very close. in a sense... it changed my life. the show has always meant a lot to me because of that. because just like pranks were the glue for jim and pam before they got together, the office was the glue for de and i. i'm thankful for that.

also- so glad michael came back! and i'm actually really glad he didn't have a big role, although i would've loved to see him and his family interacting. it was a great closing door :)

thanks for everything office! glad you got good again at the end

oooh sweetie baby, listen, no....

in the world of meaningless, useless news (celebrity news) kim kardashian has been making the rounds again. i love kim kardashian. meh. no. i think she's alright. i think the fact that i don't think of her as an evil being sucking the life out of the world like others feel, automatically makes me a fan and mean that i love her. she's ok, i love khloe, i really like kourtney, kim is just alright. but since i don't find her evil, i'm usually on the side of defending her. but THIS is undefendable:

giiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrl no. go put on some flats. you are 7 months pregnant, feet swollen as hell and that big ass belly just by itself isn't comfortable. so i KNOW goddamn well that those shoes aren't. 

i get it. i do. shoe fanatic here. heels all the time. go out to the mail, just in the house (i have a few pairs of in the house heels), going food shopping... anywhere. i would wear them. when i found out i was pregnant, i just knew i was gonna be one of those chicks that continued to wear heels throughout my pregnancy. the belly came along, i started waddling just a tad, constantly hot, constantly throwing up, couldn't bend, couldn't do anything.... flip flops became my best friend real damn quick. i operated under the thought that i was so uncomfortable all of the time, i'm gonna get comfort wherever i could! i wore flip flops, but also wore whatever the fuck i wanted. often my blue tube dress or leggings and a loose fitting shirt. kim needs to adopt this thinking because this right here... not ok. 

worse part is, this isn't the first time!

i saw this picture awhile ago and thought ooh that dress is hot! then looked at her bulging feet. i didn't see anyone comment on it, but i sure noticed cuz i always marvel at pregnant women who manage to wear heels throughout their pregnancies. i marvel jealously. but these shoes looked like it was killing her feet but her feet wasn't telling her face. don't believe me?

kim tweeted this after pic. smh. listen kim.... people who hate you, are still gonna hate. people who like you, are still gonna like you. wear fucking sensible shoes! you are pregnant! your feet hate you! stop the madness boo!

trouble in kimyedise?

people are talking break up when it comes to kanye and kim kardashian. i don't know what to believe but i certainly hope it's not true. there's been rumors pretty much since kim got pregnant. it's not hard to figure out why since kanye has barely been around since about then. this is usually the time where the man wants to be by their lady's side and support her and make sure she has everything she wants and needs, also, they want to be part of the pregnancy and get to know the baby as much as possible. i know my husband was busting his ass at work and was working 2nd shift so it was pretty much like he was never home. especially since when he was, he was sleeping. but if i needed something, he was on it. when there was an appointment, he was going. no question. i understand kanye might not be able to pull that off exactly, but since he's able to come to the states to do other jobs or go to shows, then why not make a few special trips for your lady love?

an "insider" was quoted:

"We just do not understand why she is traveling to Paris to see him. She is the pregnant one. Kanye will fly in to see the editors of Vogue, but he won’t fly in to see the lady carrying his child. The only way they have a future is if Kim continues to do whatever he says."

there's probably some truth to that. kim is a pushover. you saw how she was with kris. he was a total douchebag asshole dickhat and she was all over him, defending him, doing whatever he says. practically every picture he was leading her around like a puppy. that's just how she is. she loses herself in her boyfriends. i hope kanye isn't taking advantage of that, especially while she's pregnant. because now is the time where she needs to be relaxing, taking things slow, feet up and all that. basically, being catered to. and she's running all over the world for kanye.

however, it's not like we know the whole story. i don't kanye's contracts and deals and ultimately, as long as both of them are happy, it really doesn't even matter what i or anyone else says or thinks. i just hope that they both ARE actually very happy together and stay together for.... ever? i guess. since they're having a child and all. plus, we all know that kanye thinks kim is pretty awesome!

a look back at disturbing behavior

so while i have the day off from kids, i decided that i should do what my favorite thing used be: laying in bed, eating candy while watching movies (and chatting with my future husband, but even though i'd love to do that, someone has to watch the kids). ok, in all honesty, my plan was to put on a movie that wouldn't really interest me and take a nap. so i went through my netflix to find something that wouldn't interest me or something that i had already seen so i wouldn't care. i came across the 1998 katie holmes teen horror- disturbing behavior. i started watching it and instead of napping, i got engaged in it again.

when i first watched it back in the 90's, i vividly remember loving it. i used to have a borderline sick love for movies where i would watch them, love them, then try to make my life recreate that movie. i mean, not entirely. but you know.... a little bit. so i remember falling for this movie and listening to flagpole sitta every other minute, trying to pull off tank tops that bared my stomach and trying so desperately to make "razor" happen. it didn't. rightfully so. but watching it now, although i completely enjoyed it, i totally didn't connect to it. maybe because i'm no longer a weird teen who feels misunderstood and left out? idk.

first off, all i could think was how this movie was so much like stepford wives. many people say the faculty is the movie it models and i can see that. and i did think that for a minute but since there's no alien presence, just mind control, stepford wives was the movie winner that i compared it to.

secondly, what is up with every 90's teen flick doing the lunch room clique breakdown? lol. ok maybe it's not just the 90's. i remember that scene in mean girls too. but i thought it was funny how this guy just comes up to the new kid and gives him the rundown on everyone in the school. and of course it took all of lunch for the 2 minutes conversation to happen.

but here's my big issue, and many people have this complaint: this movie could've been stellar if it had real development. it takes a very long time to find out that steve's brother is dead and how he died. is there a reason that held secret until the end? why is rachel the trash of the town? they don't talk about her family or what got her there. she just is but she seems like a completely normal teen and despite all that sass, she seems somewhat lovely. (i don't know what makes her seem lovely to me besides the fact that i just think of her as joey potter gone rock n roll. but like a tame rock n roll). i really wish we got to see more of gavin and his background. yeah, as a teen when i watched it, it was a total shock to see him go blue ribbon. but watching as an adult, i was just like... i'm supposed to care why? i didn't even know he had parents that cared! i assume rachel doesn't.

gratuitous tit shot. 

why are there never gratuitous peen shots? :(

the beginning where gavin witnesses the murder should've been left out. instead, they should've introduced us to caldicott. what he was trying to do seemed interesting. i get he's an science obsessed sociopath, but what made him go from father to experimenting on his daughter? what was she like before? i mean, i guess they wanted that as the big reveal to save for later in the film, but i think at that point, that's when you should show us some of THAT storyline. i wanna know what his first batch of mind controllers were like. you wouldn't have to even go that far in, just a semi quick recap of flashbacks. overall, we just don't get to know the characters. even the main one, steve. and the ending is really dumb and slightly confusing to me. like the writers just stopped and hit "auto ending" and then "twist ending". there was a slight sexual tension between rachel and steven but they really didn't tell that story enough for me to find them being a couple believable. it just felt out of nowhere. personally, i thought, well it's obvious he likes her but she must not like him so whatever. sometimes i wasn't even sure if she liked him as a person but now they're kissing and in love? ok..... it's nice that they included the sister but she was so nonexistent in the movie, i don't think i would've thought twice if steve left her. and what about their parents? how are they going to feel about this now that blue ribbons isn't a factor? and how are they the only 4 teens left in the bay when there was an entire school of kids and only like 20 of them were brainwashed? and who's going to explain to the parents of dead teens what happened to their kids? where the fuck are steve, his sister, rachel and uv going to go? that's real cute that "home is wherever we are" but you're teens! and you have a kid sister! you have to eat, you need money. are you becoming homeless? how the hell is that going to work for you? especially when you can just as easily go home without any problems now.

then the big twist is that gavin survived and is still brainwashed. which is a cool twist. but i'm like what's the point of telling me that? does that mean everyone survived? maybe just a few? did the doctor survive? just gavin? because gavin didn't do the operations so him surviving means exactly jack shit to me besides the fact that 12 year old michelle had a huge crush on him and was glad he was still around to be sexy. that was a twist just to have a twist!

overall the movie is good, it's an interesting story which is why it's done over and over in various ways. the acting is eh and it could definitely use some more development. but i liked it and got along fine without it, just would've liked it more and it would've made more sense with it. it was nice to watch again though.

mother's day

so my husband already gave me my gifts for mother's day. he's not very good with waiting to give me gifts so i usually have to tell him i don't want it until that day. however, this was THE first time he got me gifts without asking me what i wanted! i dropped hints (the obviously subtle hints like "oooooh i LOVE this! this would be great for mother's day/my birthday/christmas/valentine's day/just get it for me because i love it day!) but he didn't get me those so i was very curious as to what i was getting for mother's day. so i let him give me the gifts before mother's day because my curiosity was bursting! and well.... he did a pretty bang up job!

i love these shoes. i hadn't bought any shoes since before my children were conceived. actually, they were red as well. platform high heels. sky high and beautiful. not too long after, i got pregnant and that was the end of buying me anything that wasn't needed. and i'm a shoe fanatic, so imagine! (also, proud shoe fanatic mommy moment in a little bit) i always check out shoes anyway, knowing damn well i can't get them. however, this one day i saw these white, faux snake skin, peep toe, platform, sling back heels and was in deep need for them. i was getting these shoes! but i also wanted like 3 other pair. these red heel sneakers were one of them. i bought the whites ones and he got me the red sneakers for mother's day <3

this gift means the world to me. i had this same pearl ring when we got married. this is my all time most favorite piece of jewelry that just has the biggest hold on my heart. not only because of it's emotional meaning, but because it's so god damn beautiful. it's a soft pink pearl (love pink! love pearls!) with diamonds and sterling silver (love diamonds! love silver!) all my favorites in this super cute ring. i just haven't seen a ring that's more stunning or more me. honestly. anyway, what happened is that one day my pearl came out. not paying attention and having no idea what the hell was loose in my pocket, i just threw it out. later that day i looked at my ring and noticed the pearl was missing. searched all over for it and then eventually put two and two together and realized i threw it out and that was the end of that. luckily, i had another ring that my husband had given me before that is beautiful and meaningful so i was wearing that until my wonderful hubby, got me the ring i love again :) it really made me feel complete again. 

4 god damn bags of my all time favorite candy. smh.... lol. i love this gift but there's no way this isn't going to get me fat. but i'm like always craving these and there's no store near by that sells them. ugh these are just so damn good!

then there was a bonus gift that i can't show you. it involves some sexy undies on my man and dear jesus was this gift amazing. that's all i'm willing to say :D

so on actual mother's day, i'll just be getting the day off. (just... like it's nothing lol) greatly looking forward to that.

so to all the mommies out there: i hope you all have a stress free, relaxing day. i hope you get things you love and if you do have to spend the day with the family, then i hope it's full of funny and adorable moments that you will always remember. i know, i know, not likely, but i can wish good things onto the moms that deserve it right?


so my equally shoe fanatic daughter.... there's a nice sale at old navy on baby stuff. so i got my daughter a pair of super adorable flip flips.

cute right? i need to paint her toe nails. anyway, last night, i tried these on her and she was beyond excited. she stuck out her foot to make it easy for me to slip them on and then she pranced around the house. so bed time comes, i brush their teeth, change their diapers, get them into pjs and i take one of her flip flops off. this girl... my daughter.... she starts crying and throwing a fit. i'm like no... she isn't crying over me taking off her shoe right? so i put it back on and see what happens. she's happy as ever again. my heart swells and i feel a huge surge of pride. my little girl loves shoes! just like mommy :D so we let her sleep in them since they weren't walked in outside yet. i go to get her out of her crib this morning, one's off, the other's on. so i take that one off. she eats breakfast, drinks her milk and then grabs her shoes, comes over to me, puts one flip flop in each one of my hands. crawls on my lap and thrusts her foot out in my face. <3 this lady. i'm so happy i have a girl and i'm so happy she's already taking after me. hopefully it sticks and she never goes through her tomboy phase that i went through and that drove my mom nuts since i would choose boy pants and shirts over adorable, gorgeous dresses with frilly socks and cute mary janes. maybe one day my husband will experience that with luke when he chooses a pair of camo shorts and a sleeveless shirt to wear out. smh. lol right now, she was just staring at her shoes and smiling :) just like i do!

bad girls club reunion part un ******SPOILERS******

ooooooooooooooh shit! that was crazy! i mean, most of the reunion was just filler. i hate that. probably a good 20 minutes is the actual reunion and then about 5-8 minutes of THAT is just alicia saying how she's gonna "beat up" shanrock and she MUST go on stage with valentina, despite the fact that valentina was very clear that her ass was too scared to go out there again.

so i'm jumping ahead but only very slightly. so tanisha, or as my husband knows her and calls her: pop off, is introducing the last 6 in the house and is greeting each one with a hug. and then this chain of events happened:

oh hi shannon, nice to meet you

lemme just give rocky a hug... and what the what??! 

(psst- the blur is shannon)

kicking valentina's ass while everyone is wondering

wtf?

going in!

usually i hate fights like that because obviously the other person didn't see it coming. i find it to be a punk move. and paula brought that up and i have to just say.... not in this case. shannon was bullied in that house. she was picked on, abused and jumped more than once and more times than not, it was out of nowhere. when you deal with that, then you have every right to retaliate however you see fit (assuming no one gets killed). i don't see that as a punk move, that was a power move! everyone talked so much shit about her being weak and not someone to worry about, well now she showed you bitches!

so then shannon goes off stage and valentina starts getting confrontational with rocky for some strange reason.

anyone want some pie?

bitch your face is broken!

 so then valentina goes to the back and sulks like a little bitch to alicia, who gets all kinds of not sincere angry and wanting to "beat them up" and blah blah blah while shanrock celebrate in the back and the other cast members are left angry and confused. valentina says she wants to go home because she's "too pretty for this". and that's all we pretty much got from the reunion. and really, that's all we needed for the first part. now the second part..... oooooooh can't wait!